I feel like I need a mental break on a regular basis, and I’m wondering is it just me or a symptom of my generation? Are we just lazy and weak?
Our parents were the kind that worked 2, 3 even 4 jobs at a time, with years going by without a holiday, yet never complained or took ‘time out’ or ‘sabbaticals’.
In my generation, we have one or two holidays a year and we are being diagnosed with depression, exhaustion, burn out etc in the thousands.
Of course the other element of it is maybe our parents did feel like that and just said nothing.
I don’t know.
All I know is that if I don’t address this issue when it regularly arises, or leave it too long before I do, I literally feel like I’m going to die…metaphorically. I feel irritable, purposeless, unresponsive and ultimately like a zombie waiting either for cogency to return or alternatively, waiting to check out of life with non-resistant finality.
Maybe it is all the digital involvement too. Which seems to be where the finger is most commonly pointed these days. It really does deaden your brain after hours and hours on these platforms or interacting on them (after the initial buzz), and drain you of mental and physical strength.
But I think it’s possibly unfair, and a bit lazy to blame that solely for this.
I think there’s an element of the fact we face a bagfull more pressures than possibly our parents did at the same age as us in their time. Jobs don’t come as easy, nor does buying a house, settling down, they didn’t have to pay extortionate life-debt inducing amounts for education etc etc. But then again, just because those struggles weren’t theirs at the time, doesn’t mean they didn’t face equal resistance via other struggles.
I don’t know. I don’t know what the answer is. There’s plenty of pathways I could take this thought stream down.
All I know is that I’m continuously cyclically tired, and I need several breaks a year (not necessarily abroad, more internally and mentally), to prevail in this thing called life and stay on the right side of perky.
But for the grace of God.
I thank God for my prayers that catch me just before I’m about to keel over into an abyss.
I thank God for equilibrium.